Peaks and Valleys

"Often the deep valleys of our present will be understood only by looking back on them from the mountains of our future experience. Often we can't see the Lord's hand in our lives until long after trials have passed. Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf

I hope I don't appear to be dramatic with some of my posts (although inside I feel dramatic :) ) but a lot of these quotes I find give me hope. I do hope that someday soon I will be out of my dark valley and up onto the shining mountain tops understanding and seeing clearly what this was all for.

Cavities

Trey had to go in to the hospital today, not for his seizures, but for cavities. He had to go into the OR under general anesthesia b/c he had so many cavities. I'm embarrased to even say how many he had. Nine. Can you believe it? What kind of a mother am I?? I feel awful. I brush his teeth every night without fail. Okay, so I haven't been perfect about getting flossing done every night (but do most nights) and I'm not great at getting his teeth brushed in the morning, but what mom is? Super mom? I don't know what happened from his last appointment 8 months ago (when he had none) until now, but some virulent bacteria must have entered his mouth and wreaked some havoc!! I am now going to be a crazy nazi tooth brushing/flossing/mouth rinsing/water picking 3 times a day mom!! ...or at least I'm sure I will be to start with and then I'll taper off. BUT - I do plan on getting those teeth brushed at least 2x a day and flossed at least 1x. I sure don't want to do this to him (or myself) again. Poor little guy is as pale as a ghost tonight even hours after the anesthesia wore off. I'm feeling great about myself tonight. Kudos to me for having the kid with 9 cavities. Trashy. Anyway, hopefully he'll be feeling better tomorrow.

Today

"We worry about what a child will be tomorrow, yet we sometimes forget that they are someone today."

What Matters

"At the end of the day, it doesn't matter how clean your house is or what you've gotten done, but whether you've touched the life of your child."

Beautiful People

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."

So Proud!

I am so proud of little Trey today! We had to go in this morning to get his blood drawn to check the medication levels in his body - and he didn't even cry! It really melted my heart because I am an adult and I hate getting my blood drawn. What a little stud muffin. Turns out the medication levels are not so high in his blood so we increased the dose tonight. We went to the Disney store after his test and he and Cody picked out a "prize" since Trey did so well. Trey picked out some figurines from the movie "Tangled" and Cody picked out a stuffed Winnie the Pooh. Grammy bought them for the boys and she also got them some "Woody (for Cody) and Buzz (for Trey)" jammies. They wore them tonight and were so cute! I wish I took a couple of pictures today, because even though we just did ordinary things (and some not so fun things - like the blood draw, at least in my mind) today, somehow it was special.

Be Still, and know that I am God

"Be still, and know that I am God..." ~ Psalms 46:10

Since I am tired of falling to pieces every time Trey has a seizure, I thought I would try praying instead. I should have been doing this all along, but today, I prayed when I felt like crumbling (I still kind of was) and as I did, this scripture came to my mind. Be still, and know that I am God. It was actually a song that I had heard before that came to my thoughts - so I looked it up on the internet so I could listen to it. The song is by Hilary Weeks (I love her music!) and I just happened upon this video in my search. I love it and I hope you enjoy it, too!